March 30th, 2004

Painting toes

Can one really Disappear..

. and if so, why can't I figure how.

If I was a mage then I would create a portal and hide in there for a while, but seeing that I’m not a mage that can't happen. See I don't want to totally disappear, just maybe for a little, or until I can figure things out.

I know I failed my math quiz today. I left 6 questions blank. I could not sleep again last night. I can't seam to get my head to be quite long enough for me to get any decent sleep. I did get to sleep late last night like 4 or 5, I think. Got up long enough to turn off the alarm and fell asleep. Let’s just say I woke up just in time to get there about 5 mins late. I was dizzy and sleepy I did the whole 1st side just fine, but I could not remember the 3 step to the ABC method of foiling. I stayed there until class was over and I still could not remember. I had to turn it in unfinished. I ran out crying. I was so embarrassed. I could not stop crying. What was wrong with me I know how to do it.

Everything is falling apart. I can't drop my math class because then I will have to drop my College dance class; not to mention, that the drop date was yesterday!

I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Not saying I really ever knew. Everything counts now one false move and it's hard to recuperate from. I’m lost and confused.
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