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I have been is a rather awful mood for a couple of days. I’m not exactly sure what it was brought a pond by but every time I try to get out of it something just brings it down more. I am probably being really irrational. I hear some one say that there was only to people that they can’t stand to be upset or sad and it kind of hurt that I was not one of the, but I shouldn’t be bother by it. Don’t get me wrong by any means I’m really glad Kit and Matt are here. I have missed Kit a lot. I just really hate that they had to come on my day because then it was all about them and not me. I know saying that is childish but still. No one can say ‘oh I have a great birthday I spent most of it on the bus to and from the air port and in the airport. I was really at one point trying to be optimistic about the day working out good but I just couldn’t. Expressly after being ignore. It was not just ones it was on many times. It was a lot of the time and still is. I fell like I should just got back to feeling unimportant because then when I’m ignored it does not bother me. That is just how things are. I will just have to come to terms with the fact that to some people I will never be important enough or have a special bond. I some times think I do but I won’t ever. I’m too different from everyone I really care about.


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Jul. 5th, 2005 09:08 pm (UTC)
happy birthday?
;.; ::huggles::
Jul. 5th, 2005 10:12 pm (UTC)
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Jul. 6th, 2005 12:02 pm (UTC)
thanks. ^^

I feel much better after ranting ^^
Jul. 6th, 2005 08:45 pm (UTC)
Happy birthday Em. . . .
Wish it would have went better for you!
Jul. 9th, 2005 04:46 am (UTC)

<3 Thanks... There is aways next year -.- lol
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